jack speight

ramblings from a wobbly mind

FIVE

I was driving back from the pizzeria, a works for me and a veggie for my youngest daughter, when I realized how slow I was driving. Even in the rural area where I live there was a queue of cars behind me (3 to be exact) waiting for me to either speed up or pull over. I did neither. During this leisurely drive home I realized I’d slowed down not only on this particular drive but in all aspects of my life. When did that happen? It was, of course, a gradual change. One not seen as it was happening but only after it was finished. I had reached the crest. I was coasting now.

This doesn’t mean I’m going to stop learning, writing, painting, traveling, growing (both inside and out). What it means, I think, is that I’m finally comfortable being me. We race, struggle, and fight with our past and our future trying to make some sense of it, trying to find solace in our choices, in ourselves. Some never reach it, others reach it in their youth. I probably took a little longer than most; although, I know people my age who are still climbing, still searching for who they are.

I’ve slowed down and begun to enjoy nearly everything more I than used. I eat slower, read slower, make love slower (my wife nods enthusiastically). I enjoy after dinner conversations, the dirty dishes can wait. I work slower and usually do a better job. I stop and listen to my kids. I even drive slower from the pizzeria and I am happy. The journey was hard, but getting here is nice.

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3 thoughts on “FIVE

  1. George Hillman on said:

    Good for you Jack, I always thought that would be me someday but now I’m off to the wilds of Alaska and then….

  2. judith hume on said:

    For heavens sake Jack. Stop getting pizzas or driving (OK, what ever you want to do with you wife is fine with me) but nothing else. Write man, write! I finished “Turbatus Bones” at 12:45 this morning and was horrified to see that the next book wasn’t waiting for me. Shame on you. Did I mention I need you to write? Please.

    • Thanks Judith, I’m glad you enjoyed it. Tell your friends, pass the word. I NEED Champions to let others know the book is out there. Would you be willing to post a review on Amazon and/or Goodreads? It would be much appreciated.

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